As I finish my core accounting classes for my MBA, my lingual dystonia worsens. I was getting used to being able to deal with the starring or the confused faces but lately, I hear a different person. The pain associated with speaking has increased. I see a new path for me, accounting may not be what I was "destined" to be.
Some of my fellow classmates, who also recently finished their core accounting classes believe that this condition was put onto me for me to achieve a higher cause.
I used to speak clearly and normally. My tongue was always a little awkward growing up, but it never interfered. Now people either think I am half deaf, survived a stroke or they have no idea why I look or sound the way I do when speaking.
If my mouth is not opened, no one will ever notice lingual dystonia. But, that approach has raised curiosity especially since I used to be a very vocal and a social person. The silence that I admit while trying to compensate through nonverbal queues has raised eyebrows.
The other day my sister and I went out for a drink at a local Boston bar. The waiter came and asked us how we were doing. Instead of verbally responding, I decided that nodding my head and fiercely smiling would compensate.
After the waiter left, my sister said, "What was that?"'
"What do you mean?"
"You looked like you were on crack the way you vigorsly nodded your head...and that smile? Oh goodness. You need to be more relaxed, don't scare people"
Man, being silent is harder than I thought. My sister and I proceeded to talk about how my nonverbal advances are worse than me just trying to communicate the old fashion way, speaking.
Learning how to speak well non verbally is my next challenge.
Some of my fellow classmates, who also recently finished their core accounting classes believe that this condition was put onto me for me to achieve a higher cause.
I used to speak clearly and normally. My tongue was always a little awkward growing up, but it never interfered. Now people either think I am half deaf, survived a stroke or they have no idea why I look or sound the way I do when speaking.
If my mouth is not opened, no one will ever notice lingual dystonia. But, that approach has raised curiosity especially since I used to be a very vocal and a social person. The silence that I admit while trying to compensate through nonverbal queues has raised eyebrows.
The other day my sister and I went out for a drink at a local Boston bar. The waiter came and asked us how we were doing. Instead of verbally responding, I decided that nodding my head and fiercely smiling would compensate.
After the waiter left, my sister said, "What was that?"'
"What do you mean?"
"You looked like you were on crack the way you vigorsly nodded your head...and that smile? Oh goodness. You need to be more relaxed, don't scare people"
Man, being silent is harder than I thought. My sister and I proceeded to talk about how my nonverbal advances are worse than me just trying to communicate the old fashion way, speaking.
Learning how to speak well non verbally is my next challenge.